Once upon a star

I see a little star tonight, beautiful with its own shine, it has shone me. I'm sad, its look lonely, its alone in the darken blue skies, where is the other? why they left it alone? 

remembered to my childhood, I always look up to the skies. I like it, it's colored blue! when I woke up, I can saw a beautiful charm blue sky with soft clouds and wonder what does it look like. could it be an animal, could it be a letter, could it be a fruit, or sometimes I wonder that was me. when the night come, it has another beautiful blue! darken blue! darken blue with the shining star. but i can only see it about ten or twelve years ago. the latest time i saw darken sky with many shining star was when i was in 7th grade or 1st grade in Junior High School., I still remember that time it was impressed me. at that time, i was join such kind of leadership training or Indonesian called it "LDK". the leadership training was hold in some mountains. I really love it! imagine, you must walked about 2 km to reach the area, for some people that's really annoyed but for me it was my gold! my gold moment, I'm not sure i can do that again someday. 

well, join the leadership training was my valuable moment but the problem is, since i joined the leadership training i have emh may be  i can called it 'trauma' to the senior -_- you know, my senior in Junior high school was my nightmare!! I really got easily scared with my senior, until now even though I have different senior in school and i think my senior in my high school is more kind than my junior high school .__.v but, I was thankful to them, because they have taught me how to be a polite person moreover to the older person ^^b so, because I'm toooo afraid with my senior, during the leadership training i got a problem. I couldn't see my senior face too afraid, how do i answer their question?? it was already in the midnight, some of us was woken up by one senior, they gave us some direction to do 'treasure hunting'. so, they made us in to some group and search the way from one post to the another post walk in the midnight without any lamp, only a flashlight, moon, and the shining star accompany us. until, we arrived in a post here I met the most feared senior his name ****** with another senior in this post, all of senior would ask many question to the personal person. as i know, one senior one person. of course from my deepest hearth i prayed "wish `ka *****` didn't choose me as the junior to asked!" and oh, I really unlucky at that time, he choose me! he choose me to gave some question with his-scared-no-smile-faced and success made me wanna eat sushi and wonder why rapunzel have a long hair -_-.

"oh no, I'll died. God please hear me, i still wanna meet onew shinee let him heard my voice. wonder he'll jumping out from the skies and save me!" shouted me in my hearth.

and he walked closer and closer, i really felt wanna die. and he started asked me with some question and I looked up to the skies, hope God heard my shouted and really delivered onew to save me from the skies, but no.. God gave me more than onew shinee, I was impressed and felt i was in the other world. i see a beautiful angel! A beautiful angel that i called it `stars`. there was so many stars!! a lot of stars!! i found many things there! i found my self when i linked one star with another, i could `write` onew's name in the skies, i don't mind it anymore with my senior the one thing i know that time was only 'please freeze the time could i bring this skies to my bedroom?' but unfortunately, my senior broke the beautiful moment -.- `they` shout at me! yeah they, not only one senior but the other senior joined my the most feared senior and all of them made a circle at me and all of them shouted at me~ uuhh, i could hear my another friends. they cried, cried and cried and couldn't stop, but that was strange for me. I didn't felt afraid anymore in that time, after saw a beautiful scenery i felt i got my `macho` side, uh i  mean i felt wonder girl has possessed me so its made me wanna dance and sing a song 'nobody' -_- ok, no. but its such kind of i got my strength! i got my spirit! so i can easily answered their question with my calm face and mind. and the dawn time come, the stars gonna disappeared from the skies, it has changed in to another beautiful scenery. I never wonder, that's night was my first and my latest time to see a thousand stars in the darken blue skies.

the fact, this world age isn't `adult` again  this world already change to be an `old man`. I almost can not see the stars anymore, they have gone, leave me alone. why they never show their selves again? are they too afraid to us? too afraid of being hurt? or they didn't have any place to make us smile? don't you missed them? would you like to make stars just a history? so who will be responsible with all of this?

please, give it back to me. please give my stars back to me don't make it just a history for the next generation, for the day after today...